Day 5. IM sick....shit....and onli 1 kilkenny did its duty....freakin drunk man.........finally...i can jz let out my feelings out...sori myke..haha....i talked alot 2day...lalala.....
My feeling speaks thru lyrics of songs again....
And i nvr fancy David Archuleta until......he actually sang this....
Day 4. a day tat i start wit heartaches.... wat more didnt did tat well in my midterm test...but its ok...gonna work my arse off for my presentation... well...i need to relax myself...after so much ive been goin thru....im heading bac to ipoh to meet my beloved friends....and gawd did u guys make up my day!! Seriously...i cudnt ask for more than wat God had given me.... and yes its hard to meet u guys sumtimes but damn man...u guys stood right dere...jz closee to me to able to hold me close and hugged me when im in a bad shape and helped me up when i fall...
Chun Pui....u're the best!! seriously when im with u.... all u left in my heart...was happiness....a reason to move on and also thanks alot for being dere for me...and Myke... words cannot describe u frien... come to tink of it... Both of us r facing our own bumps in our journey...and guess wat....v slow down...and take care of each other... u noe wat... u were dere even when im not ready to face the cruel world... and v r still goin thru the bad times together...not leaving u out too tzehoe...im glad u were always been truthful to me....helpin me to be a better person and i do noe tat u cared for me...hehe...my sis told all about u when u asked bout my condition...
DEJANA!! my ever best nvr meet b4 in life CLOSEST FRIEND EVER!! u noe...i nvr regretted playin 9Dragons with you...from a hi bye friend...and now...im sharing my life with you and vice versa...haha....tell u wat....i can feel deep much of caringness from u all the way from Canada girl... u rock my world on!! xD life has been tough for me and i noe its not gonna stop just yet...but i do believe.... dat u will be dere for me till the end...haha....even till the extend of flyin here to help me out huh??GRRR...LOL....
Thinking my life wud be the worst...losing everything...startin from all over again...i guess im wrong...i overlooked dat i hav u guys and not forgetting my dearest sis Serena Tan to be with me... i didnt lose anythin but instead i gain more of lovingness from u guys...gosh...i cudnt be more thankful to u guys.. Goin to barbeza and Houz tonight is indeed not a mistake...coz its definately worth it... and serena....i wan you to be my official step sister!! haha...and pls dun smoke so much and if u got the feeling tat u dun like to smoke...nurture it and stop pls... hehe....
A BIG HUG AND LOVE FROM ME TO YOU GUYS!! GOD BLESS U ALL... HUGGIES!! <33333
I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face And it never feels out of place
And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace I wonder how bad that tastes
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell
Now where's your picket fence love And where's that shiny car, And did it ever get you far
You've never seem so tense love I've never seen you fall so hard, Do you even know where you are
And truth be told I miss you And truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself Yeah, Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on
And truth be told I miss you And truth be told I'm lying
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
Now you'll never see, what you've done to me You can take back your memories they're no good to me And here's all your lies, You can look me in the eyes With that sad sad look that you're sol
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
When you see my face Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell Hope it gives you hell When you hear this song and sing along, oh you'll never tell Then you're the fool, I'm just as well Hope it gives you hell When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell And when you sing along I hope that it puts you through hell
This is my favourite song at the moment...well it meant nothin actually...but den again...i need to listen to this song jz to enlight myself...no offence...xD woohoooo
alamak...2day sucky...victor!! aihz.... wel.i guess im still not ready to face the next level...after hearing the conversation...i guess...im still not ready for those things...God... teach me patience more n more....lol...renjie... super enjoyed our conversation 2day....hugx! i guess both of us noe how it feels huh??haha....wat more both of us was in our 1st ever relationship huh..hehe... well...it did taught us both tons of stuff...being gud or bad... for me...im not shy to tell the world tat i nvr regreted loving my love and i still do...be wat others said... im still loving u like mad whether u choose to ignore it or choose to love me bac one day...coz my love for u is ever pure...
Renjie...thank you...and yea..3 more box....this very 3 boxes left...is my time limit..after this three...i wan to be free...and i want to adore u back oh Lord...give me time...im changing for You... and dear love...pls attend church... dere is still much more for u to learn...and for me.... let me share tis wit u... Choose to obey man or God...is up to u... onli you will noe which wan is much more important to u... in order for blessings to flow in ur life...and less trouble... pls...be wise...you wudnt noe how much i spend my time wit God when me n u 1st met...but due to my s2pidity i left u rejected...sorry again
To all my ever close friends and to my dearest Sis!!! I love all of u guys!! seriously i admit sumtimes when life gets tough on u...and life goes to fun for u...u tend to forget sum of ur friends...but God always brings the most unexpected ppl to be there for u...and this people...are wat v humans called... The BEST FRIENDS U EVER HAD!
love...u might face certain problems...but let me share wit you..learn to lean of God when it comes to hard times or even minor problems...dun fight battles on ur own coz victory belongs to God... sumtimes...its better for u to understand ppl rather den demanding ppl to understands u..learn to look from a different point of view..well.. u r stubborn at times...after all this while i knew u....not to say its not good...but at times... be wise n look at the situation...coz wat stubborness brought to me...its a disaster...
hehe...VICTOR!! im proud u u noe...u actually succeed being the kindess person ever...selfishness is not in ur vocabulary anymore...u adviced the person u loved most in her rship..and not sitting down to watch it end... as wat u hav learnt that divine love is wat had brought u to this stage...well...it do hurts when u see the one u loved most...is wit another person... and dear Victor...preservere n NVR GIVE UP TILL THE LAST MOMENT....
to love's current bf...FUISH...my gawd...im actually writing to u...lol....well....u anti me for the wrong reason...and pls...dun keep jealously in u...gawd...i was once like you...well...not as gila as u...but den...man to man...its not like u're pickin up my mess for gudness sake...its because u love her u r willing to go thru the hard times wit her...barger...dun ever blame for fux...its not like ur older den me u can do watever u want...dun b a puzzy... face the problem head on...im learnin that coz tat is wat cost my rship...till the day i die...ill keep tat deep in the ocean of my heart...in tis post of mine...babe! u better take gud care of her dude...dun make the same mistake as i did... Im wishin her happy blessings...pls...dun u dare touch her if u're plannin to play her up...sori for being rude coz i dun believe in clubbing dates bro... i've seen to much...anyway...thx for being dere for her all this while when im was still in my s2pidity maze...
Well, i guess... tis period of time...i still need to learn more coz im still not really ready to be the prince of my beloved heart yet..i reli hope 1 day it will and she'll tell me she wants to be my princess... BE STRONG N KEEP IT GOIN VIC!!
MY LOVE....MY WORDS OF HEART SPEAK THRU THIS SONGS NOW....
Day 2. DEfinately had fun 2day...lol... and so did tis XX XXX...hehe... well....v were like walkin down memory lane all together... finally XX XXX noes how i felt last time and havin a "lame" excuse...i guess my life is quite lame after all...being unmatured n stuff...well...i got nothin to hide anymore when it comes to XX XXX...haha...im goin all out~~ its super early morning and im still thinkin bout yesterday...well...to be honest...dere is a moment where i do want to freeze the time yesterday and tinks its like last time...the doors of my heart is still wide open for u...
I conquered my fears and im living wit confidence...i guess God helped me out tis time huh...Thx alot God!! ALL out for ya!! haha... No explaination needed here..hehe...coz its btw me n God...alrite...ROLL ON VIC.... remember XX XXX... be strong in ur rship k?? if ever i saw u "messed up" im gonna be the Cleaner...HAHA!!!
well...i still wanna cont my life...but nvrtheless this guilt of mine will definitely stay forever indeed... for not lovin u enuf and being s2pid dat letting u go will solve things...but it ends up it didnt... to be honest wit u my love... I will not move... until God tells me so... Well...answer is always later yes and no...i do hope its later...until i really grow up and understand wat is the real meaning of love.. i guess He's teaching me how to grow up and how to be patience and really understands wat is urs is urs...can nvr run away from it huh...haha...until God answer me...i will definitely wait for you...for the time being..as time heals me and with God's guidance and teaching...i will still be waiting...coz there is no other one like you...haha...Victor Loke...be strong coz when God is with you...no one can bring u down...ten thousand may fall on ur left or even ur right...but u will nvr fall...for God is with you... Remember...
I guess it cudnt be help...its over...avthin is over...avthin is gone...starting from zero bac again huh...well waiyee...i hope wat u said...its gonna come thru... i do wanna cont my life and i letting go...its hard to accept but truth hurts and shit happens...maple...i blieve in wat u said and im goin for it...
Seeing the person u loved the most lovin sum1 else is the hardest part in ur life... its like living hell to me...
This is wat i really am my love..this is my song to you...and this is indeed wat i am doin....
This is the lyrics that explains wat u really are to me...and i will love u till the end...
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move, Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand, Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am, Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man, I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Policeman says son you can't stay here, I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year, Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
People talk about the guy Who's waiting on a girl... Oohoohwoo There are no holes in his shoes But a big hole in his world... Hmmmm
and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved, And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, And you'll come running to the corner... Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved I'm the man who can't be moved...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. [Repeat in background]
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
Im feeling lonely nowadays....as if im left jz like tat...half way dangling....Im really clueless my love...wat r u tryin to do and wat is in ur mind....pls tell me....im worried bout u and i got no news from u...not even a simple msg or sumthin...pls....tell me something....
Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence So please just break the silence
The whispers turn to shouting The shouting turns to tears Your tears turn into laughter And it takes away our fears
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me I'll give up all I have just to breathe The same air as you till the day that I die I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling I'm feeling inspired My world just flip turned upside down, and turned around Say what's that sound It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder My heart beat, is stronger than ever I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive
The whispers turn to shouting The shouting turns to tears Your tears turn into laughter And it takes away our fears
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me I'll give up all I have just to breathe The same air as you till the day that I die I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story It's time I open up, and let your love right through me I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story It's time I open up, and let your love right through me Cause that's what you get When you see your life through someone else's eyes That's what you get, that's what you get
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me I'll give up all I have just to breathe The same air as you till the day that I die I can't take my eyes off of you So you see, this world doesn't matter to me I'll give up all I have just to breathe The same air as you till the day that I die I can't take my eyes off of you
i wanna tell u my dear... tat till the day i die i will still wait for you..no matter wat the world tells me....i will still love you and my love for u will grow stronger each day..yes its always hard to see the one u loved the most with other guy...i guess tats my punishment for the rest of my life for not taking u seriously when i had u dat time and now i suffer what u r suffering...ive told u avthin yesterday..from the deep down of my heart..i will still wait...coz u r the one i love the one i cherish the most in my life now..
its still hurts badly and if onli u cud see the condition of my heart....im really sori for my s2pidity all this while dat i nvr did anythin to hold u bac...to make u wait for me....to giv u a hint tat i still lovin you....im being stupid.........YES its always dere the scar of my life...I love you darling.....
Im so gonna tell myself that i cant let it go....u're all over me.... but at the same time....hatred is in me as well....u're definately driving me nuts i tell u...zzzz....i hate it when u're wit another guy when u say u love me...and u dunwan to hurt both of us....as a matter of fact...u hav to choose 1 and by saying u choose either of us....will definately result in hurtin one of us....well...fark it....
being mr.nice guy is a farked up thin... so screw mr.nice guy man....im not gonna make myself into another deep shit again....im tellin u this because all i want is u....there is no such thin as half hearted...
This is wat i felt rite now....jz right now....and i cant sleep well.....
I see your face in my mind as I drive away 'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way People are people and sometimes we change our minds But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see 'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh
I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to
