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Roccat Kone

2010-11-01T13:12:00.000-07:00

I'm Loving my new stuff on my desktop!!

A DARN COOL PACKAGING!!!

This is how it looks like with icy blue...

And then it starts to change its colors....oh lovely!!

Getting another Razer and be part of the group?? nah.....Roccat is the new thingXD!!!

How come

2010-10-14T15:31:00.000-07:00

How come I have come to love you?
How come I've ended up like this?
How come I'm in such a distress?
How come I'm such a fool like this?

I never knew it would be like this
I'm tired again,just waiting for you
So many tragic guys around you
I didn't want to become one of them
I figure myself out when I'm watching you
I lost control of my firm mind

If you would just call me "oh my honey"
I'm there right before you with no hesitation

You're so beautiful and when I look at you
I get dizzy
You're so so mean you're smiling like you don't know anything

Everybody stops me, whenever we talk about you
But I can't control my feelings
Whenever I'm thinking about you, I'm always smiling
Even though I'm wondering day by day,
I can't figure you out

Just say it to me "oh my darling"
With all those guys by your side,
Don't you get fed up?

Even though I like you more than you like me,
Please don't be nasty,
It's crazy my heart gets bigger
What should I do?
I'm only in love with you
Please tell me that you love me too

How come you were born like that?
How come you've stolen my heart?
How come you've came up in my life?
How come you've made me love you?

Im smiling eventhough it hurts....

2010-10-14T14:36:00.000-07:00

I really find it s2pid...i guess i really am...

Am i all alone

2010-10-08T11:54:00.000-07:00

To me...friends are everything and my friends are important to me...but how many of them actually puts u as priority as you did?? how many treats u way special as how u treat them?? Being silent behind the scene is what im always been and ive seen alot... How many friends took granted and how many friends take advantages of you..

Is that wat life is all about??some friends are more extreme...they gain superiority of you and make u follow wat they say...

Till now...im already doubting...is friends around u that important or the loved ones that important??is ur girlfriend important to u as they might be the one and onli soulmate u'll ever get or your friends tat will be your friends until the end?? which wan will you choose???

Getting ur gf to noe ur friends may just be the solution....well at least that was wat i thought... ive been doing that due to examples ive seen but wat happens you and that girl cant make it...wat happens if u get dumped by ur gf and most of ur friends thinks its our fault??

and after that it seems that everything is fine and back to normal...your friends starts plans without u and soon enuf u find out those plans are with ur ex...and here i am all alone....the onli chance where i tot me and you can be like normal friends but the next thing i found out is that u cant take care of urself and i was told that is because of me...WTF??!!

I just feel awful and pain in the ass being here back in ipoh...i really dun wish to come back at times....i wish to just start all over again and be alone...sorry for all the ranting and self-pity but it just feels that way now...

how many are there to be ur side and how many will laugh at u saying...aiya...its like tat ge lar...and just went missing...

How hard can it be?

2010-09-16T07:08:00.001-07:00

this question always pop out in my mind...how hard can it be??it challenges you every single time you said it....and yea sometimes it can be very hard...and i fall so many times to take up this challenge...

how hard can it be to love someone that actually tells u that she's in love with another person?? how hard can it be to hear everything she said is about that person and ure there just beside her....

I seriously find it fucking hard... ive fall countless of times just to keep myself in one piece.. i guess the love isnt just enough...i do not know....the lil things that were inside me tells me that u'll come to me one day but i never know how long should i wait...

I missed u so much and yet...i dunno wat should i do.... i cant say i love you anymore coz it hurts me when i look at you thinking of another person...will i ever be in ur heart to stay and to be with u??

2010-09-12T02:45:00.001-07:00

im pulling out from this blackhole... it aint matter anot about waiting for you or not...im not gonna be waiting whole life for you...sorry and im out of here...peace out girl...

believe it anot

2010-09-11T13:41:00.000-07:00

believe it or not i just cant stop listening to this song by lee hyori....wayyyyy to much to let go of this song............

2010-09-11T12:52:00.000-07:00

No matter wat....no matter wat comes in my way now.....Studies come 1st.... Pushing it all the way up!!

my 100th post

2010-09-09T14:41:00.000-07:00

Seriously i do not know wat to type on this 100th post in my blog...lol... my life aint happening compared to last time... So just me write out wats on my mind...WARNING : Pure randomness!!!

finals are comin as usual every end of the sem and this period is the most fucked up part of my life.

I believe that my life has slowly revealing itself to me and what the real world is all about.... all i see is hypocrites are everywhere...so common until u can say its they are like just dirt on the ground. That's how common it is....and i believe that all we can do is just play your game smart and go to the clean side..

There is this old wise man told me before that when im once in the working world...you are bound to meet backstabber aka dirty cheap bastards that will just fuck u rite up infront of your boss to get themselves a better place and the best way is to prove them wrong by your results of the work..

However, its heart broken to see that some of my working friends applied that cheap shit thing in their worklife to get a better position and i find that maybe they're desperate...well who wouldn't? the bottom line is that they just fucked up their own principles and threw their own reputation down the drain...

Talking about love...hmm.... its been a roller coaster ride for me in this topic....experienced so many and unexpected things in my love life..lol..sumtimes i find it funny...sometimes sad and sumtimes the feeling of i dont wanna give up just yet

Love is wonderful but yet at the same time its so complicating...humans are already complicating to the extend only God noes how to handle us...wat more a human trying to understand a human=____=

A girl told me that eventhough the boy she liked had a gf and she doesnt wanna give up on him.... At 1st i was like wtf?? wat an dumb girl....but yet again when i try to understand her...i find that yea...mayb i do understand her...coz ive been thru it.. i know how hard it is to face the reality and the truth hurts...but i do want to tell her that... its not worth it(everyone wud say this) and pls do not live in denial...at the end of the day.... you'll feel like shit and i do mean LIKE SHIT after the guy played u up and fuck u off from his life.... and the closest people to you will have to clean up that shit...

BUT....one can never learn the lesson of life witout going thru it...onli after that..the girl will learn not to fall for these kinda people... It hurts especially when i myself loved that girl...Its like a slightness shine of hope at the end of the tunnel ure in...giving up the onli hope and yet its like going further and further..

Love is just so unpredictable and yet fragile at the same time.....So cherish the ones you have and do your best so you'll never regret that u'll lose that person....

Thx for reading all these nonsense ive wrote....==" pure randomness on my 100th post.....FML

Im missing you and i hope u do too...

2010-09-07T13:37:00.000-07:00

It would be wrong for me to say.....
I don't need you by my side
I don't need you in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold you when you cry

And i would not want to say that....
I don't want to say you're my kind
I don't want to say that you're mine
I don't want to tell you that
I love you more than life

why oh why

2010-09-07T01:25:00.000-07:00

Unbelievable that this song matches every single detail what my hearts want to say out...im singing this song all the way....

2010-09-06T14:35:00.000-07:00

I saw you talking on the phone
I know that you are not alone
But you steal my heart away

You’re acting like you’re on your own
But I saw you standing with a guy
Stop tryin’ to steal my heart away,

I don’t know where we going
I don’t know who we are

And you said u can feel my heartbeat
Yes u said that u can feel my heartbeat

Maybe it’s the way you move
You got me dreaming like a fool
That I can steal your heart away

I don’t know where we going
I don’t know who we are
Feels like we are flowing
High above the stars

Stop stealing my heart away
Talk to me girl
Stop stealing my heart away

2010-09-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

without you its gonna be lonely
so lets make the most of tonight
did i ever say you were the only... one who could make it alright
now i don't know when i'm gonna see you again
cant you take my mind off the pain?

so just make a move you've got nothing to lose, no

here i am, take a chance
what are you waiting for?
im telling you as a friend, we could be so much more
i never thought anyone ever could make me feel this way
so make my day!

dont make me feel stupid don't say i was wrong
building this up in my mind for so long
now our times running out so you got to be strong
if you wanna make this right break the ice
dont think twice, take me away!
what are you waiting for?

2010-08-22T04:27:00.000-07:00

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can’t help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can’t help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can’t help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can’t help falling in love with you
For I can’t help falling in love with you

Less than 3

2010-08-20T12:51:00.000-07:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

wonderful thing i took from Jillian

2010-08-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

the very symbol <3 it's a simple symbol composed of two important components in a relationship:
*love and less than three*
It means that love is less than three and it has no space for third party.

2010-08-19T06:09:00.001-07:00

These are the exact words running thru my mind every heartbeat i have...

I've heard so many words
But I have no courage
Now we're saying goodbye
Don't want to miss you tonight
Oh, tell me it's not over now
I can change your mind somehow
I give it all
I trip and fall for you
And I hope you wouldn't mind
Just one more try for something new
I need you, I need you
Don't be shocked if I cry
You've changed me inside
I turned my back on you
You were the only reason I pulled through
I pulled through
Tell me it's not over now
I can change your mind somehow
My head feels so heavy
My heart is so empty
I give it all
I trip and fall
I give it all
I trip and fall for you
And I hope you wouldn't mind
Just one more try
Just one more try for something new
I need you
I need you

New direction

2010-08-18T03:17:00.001-07:00

A new found direction in my life... Been thinking and recovering and finally back on my feet... for this 22years ive been on these earth....I've been exposed quite alot eventhough there is still so much to learn...haha....

Now since im back with both my feet on the ground its time to move on... ready to run and ready to go across any obstacle...

2010-07-26T13:17:00.000-07:00

i feel like a stranger in a big city...with no gps to guide me around and no petrol to keep on going on...im just so damn fucking lost... i dun even noe what i want now...hu are my friends are hu are there for me when they need me....i see ppl backstabbing me...i see ppl thinking that they are better me therefore judging me and i see alot of people can do...

i felt like taking a break from everything yet commitments are there making it hard...i tried doing my assignments yet i find it hard to be finished... i guess i changed too much...i guess i abandon my friends in kampar too much.... but now when i free it seems like i need them the most...

Everything now i am what i am now...im so close to give up everything i have...im so close to just stop my life as what it is and making the end of me...just so close to everything that i do not want to do...all my plans are so closed to give up on.....just this tiny dot close...

2010-06-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

I think I've already lost you I think you're already gone I think I'm finally scared now You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong I think you're already leaving Feels like your hand is on the door I thought this place was an empire But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure I think you're so mean - I think we should try I think I could need - this in my life I think I'm just scared - I think too much I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home There's an awful lot of breathing room But I can hardly move If you're gone - baby you need to come home Cuz there's a little bit of something me In everything in you I bet you're hard to get over I bet the room just won't shine I bet my hands I can stay here I bet you need - more than you mind

Only You can help me by singing this song with me

2010-06-09T08:38:00.000-07:00

I would die to sing this song with you for a day......i would just die....

a so called farewell gift from housemates of 1479

2010-04-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

Well, after 2years of unsatisfied services from westlake management, finally the whole top floor decided to shift out..some finishing the diploma like Tzehoe and Vsern is going off on an internship..others decided to move out which is me, yama, waikeong and hongweng...

2day is the day i fully shifted to Bernard's place in eastlake...everything is in a mess now and it will take me sumtime to sort things out and things which is not in use anymore back to ipoh..

anyway...2days ago....wai keong has this weird hobby just like wyip last time where they liked to collect empty cigarettes boxes and when he was packing...he decided to throw away all the boxes...and while i was still sleeping, he throwed at the freakin wrong place...zzzz...

The freaking rubbish bin is just next to the car...for goodness sake....and wai keong was kind enuf to freakin texted me got a gift from him yama and vsern...zzz...arseh***

The culprit with the idea of puttin it on my car....

ok fine...when i woke up with no idea wat they did...i was like searching on my door lar...did they do anything to it...or sumwat...then everything seems fine and i tot...shit...muz b the car....i was lazy to go down and when they came back i asked...sumthing to do with my car rite??they said nothing...zzzz

When i was packing i went down to my car and take my box to put my stuff...and i saw....WTF!! babi waikeong....Vengeance is mine!!! and this is wat i did!!lol...

Front view...

Back view...modified his car..haha..

his spoiler as well...lol

haha....told him he was like dengg....like tat oso can find my car...he purposely park behind the alley wor...kns....make me find tim...

Exam Time

2010-04-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

Its week 14 already...God Dammit!! and still got one last presentation to go on!! Groupmates are freaking carefree and blame it on me for being a noob in the assignment!!sigh...dunno wat to do....

Well...next 2weeks is already dooms day for this semester and i still havnt ready yet...sigh....have to push myself already now....sucky.....cant wait to finish up everything and cool down myself....would really prefer a great outing with my buddies though...lol....

Jeng Jeng JEng~~~

2010-04-15T14:52:00.001-07:00

hi guys....well...its gonna be 6am now and i was going go sleep....but suddenly i found sumthing super duper cool.... i was reading chin eng's blog and saw....he wanted to watch Ice Kacang Puppy Love!!

That WAS the movie i once acted as one of the KLF(sampingan lor :p) Well all i can do i just hope that they dun freaking cut out the scene where i acted coz i only appeared once...lol... This is the trailer for the movie...go watch go watch....haha...im so full of myself now...shit....xD sowee sowee...sounded

Welcome Nemo to the Family~~

2010-04-14T00:03:00.000-07:00

Nicole has found her new owners which is mabel and weihoe...

And i got Nemo in to the family....hehe....loving Nemo so much but still...the configurations....are still alot more to learn!@@

Oh yea... she came naked though...so i bought her a new dress......wah laaaa......

The shirt is lovely and not that expensive as well...XD...

aiyoyo

2010-03-18T10:46:00.000-07:00

Test is on 3 in the evening and im still..................... studied but still empty...@@"" its like my left brain fighting with right brain like tat....left brain wanna study but right brain say tired....wthell....

=.= i dunwanna fail but no drive to study.....fml fml~~!!

alrite`~~ CNY PICTURES!!!!

2010-02-27T03:12:00.001-08:00

ALRITE....PICS ARE UPLOAD...ALL OF THEM.....I'll let u guys do the stories ok??haha.....

My future....

2010-02-07T12:58:00.000-08:00

Been thinking alot about my future... wondering wat wud be the best deal for me...job that i wud like and loved that i wun do it for the sake of the job or just for the sake of the money....Since when i was young...there was alot of consideration...frm being a teacher, then a psychologist and since i hated maths since when i was primary...i was in advertising due to payment of 5digits....but now...

I feel more like i wanna be a photographer but then again...as what M3lv told me that its more to part time in the beginning where u get ur experience....still there is a job that i need to take as a footstool for myself...where i can reli rely on....

Dad told me once when i was chatting with him in dinner time where he actually suggested me to go into government work....where it is stable and much more less politics....hmm....i do like his suggestions though and what more...the working hours pays it all....but somehow i dun feel like sticking into government all the time...sigh.... what should i do...

Already nowadays what i get from my pocket money aka ptptn is definitely not enough for me....after intensive counting and stuff....based just on ptptn is definitely not enuf for me to sustain thru the whole 3years.... should i work??already this sem is crucial for me since im under probation=.=

REVIVED AGAIN~~!

2010-02-02T23:48:00.000-08:00

haha...again its time to revive my blog...lol....even lost count on how many times its been dead..haha... due to many request i decided to update on our recent cameron trip pictures...haha...so this is it.....

The song i loved

2009-11-08T17:56:00.000-08:00

I wake in the dark
Showers of light
Moments of emptiness around
Floating away
No rays of hope
Reality brings me to the ground

What can I do?
What can I say?
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for the life I used to know

For every song was filled with words of love and not of anger
What if they go?
What if they leave me far behind?

'Cause I don't wanna be alone.. (uh oh)
Living life for on my own (uh oh)
I don't want to live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I wanna be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (uh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want..
Is to be with you....

I look at the sky,
That looks back at me
I'm getting a silent melody
I know that I'm here
And I am lost
Alone and confusion by the breeze
Hiding my face, crying alone
I need to find my way back home
Back to the place
The wonderful days
Livin' the life I used to know

For every smile was born out of the love and our sincerity
And every tear from all the glowing joy

[chorus]x2
'Cause I don't wanna be alone.. (uh oh)
Living life for on my own (uh oh)
I don't want to live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I wanna be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (uh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want..
Is to be with you....

Is to be with you
Living life for on my own (uh oh)
I don't wanna live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I wanna be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (uh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before Because the only thing I really want..
Is to be with you....

A song to all

2009-11-04T02:46:00.000-08:00

A simple song dedication to all readers thats suits anytime in their situations....

Life is as brief as a light of a candle....

2009-11-01T09:49:00.000-08:00

How could one noes when he/her life would end? who can tell me how long a person can live? Things are always fragile and our life is excluded as well....the very reason im writing this post and putting my assignments aside is because the person i once knew past away few hours ago.... I couldn't help but to put my thoughts and figure sum things out...

Teenagers like most of us or yet to be or even we were once....encounter things like this and let me tell all of u a piece of my mind... We cant mess with God's decisions...We are wat we are....the very candle's light...if God decided to blow of our light...Thats it...its over....

KAMPAR, Nov 2 (Bernama) -- The bodies of three Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR) students, who had drowned at the Batu Berangkai Waterfall, here, were found late Sunday night.

Kampar district police chief Supt Abdul Aziz Salleh said the victims in the 5.30pm incident were male students Yew Ghim Chnieh and James Wan Kai Khor, both aged 20 and from Penang, and female student Yew Shy Gin, 21, from Sungai Petani Kedah.

Yew Shy Gin's body was found at 11.10pm, and the other two bodies, at 10.20pm and about midnight.

The first body was found about 300 metres from the spot where they were last seen and the second and third bodies were discovered not far from where the first body was found. All the three bodies were sent to the Kampar District Hospital.

However, another student who was also swept by the strong current, managed to swim to safety.

Abdul Aziz said a search and rescue operation following information received was immediately mounted by the police with the help of a fire and rescue team and villagers.

The incessant rain, the swift current and darkness had hampered the search operation.

A witness, Syed Sarudin Syed Shamsuddin, 41, said the incident happened after heavy rain at the waterfall area.

"My three children and I had sought shelter at a hut on the river bank while the three victims and others continued swimming in the river.

"The water level rose slowly before I heard a loud gush of water pounding on the rocks and saw four people being swept away by the swift current," he recalled.

A villager, Razali Abdullah, 32, said he was nearby at the time but could not help the victims as the current was very swift.

"I heard cries for help and saw three people struggling in the swift-flowing water," he said.

According to Razali, the UTAR students and others seen picnicking there about 3pm were advised by the local residents to go home as the waterfall could be dangerous during the rainy season.

Perak Menteri Besar Datuk Dr Zambry Abdul Kadir and state executive councillor Datuk Dr Mah Hang Soon visited the scene of the incident Sunday night.

Dr Mah said the 22-year-old second-year accounting student from Kuala Lumpur who survived the incident only had minor injuries.

The incident happened a week after three primary schoolchildren drowned in the Kampar River when the suspension bridge they were walking on with several other pupils collapsed.

-- BERNAMA
____________________________________________________________________

This is the very reason i wrote this post... When God gave a warning....PLS be aware....Im really sorry for the families that have lost their loved ones and what all we can do is say a lil prayer and make this a memory that follows us till 6 feet under....

Rest in Peace James...and the other two friends....

Nicole and Me + Sunset

2009-09-25T14:48:00.001-07:00

After my 2nd last paper 2day....was invited by classmates to take pictures in preparation for next sem subject Color Studies which need 14weeks to finish all the assignments but sadly...we only have 7 weeks to finish it all coz its a short sem. Congratz to me ! haha... so i agreed and we went at 5pm back to Uni coz the task was take 20pics of our own Uni landscape pictures and let her see tomorrow but then i was choosing n choosing and i ended so little that is best suited and some is just plain fill in the empty spaces..^^

I was abit reluctant at the beginning coz they called me up at 4.45pm when i was trying to re-energize myself after a sleepless night but i went anyway.

These are the 20 pictures chosen after more than 100 of pictures i took together with Nicole...

Nearly Christmas??hehe

A Shot which i dunno what im doing

Using macro shots

A more closer marco

The back of Block A which is also where all Staff are hibernating inside

Bamboos.....filling up the empty spaces as i said...

From a normal rock...came the majestic building where every student hates every end of the sem

The side of Block B facing the lake

The view of the lake

Filling up the spaces 2

The road of knowledge..

It strikes me when i saw this...it looks like kellie's castle..just this "castle" is so boring

The new landscape in between Block F and G

Block G which is our future library but now...its just another exam venue

Side view which looks just like a box of chocolate or a shopping complex...

Upper view

The view from Block G facing Eastlake..and my sunline is in the picture as well

This is the best picture ive took with nicole...seriously...this scenery was awesome! a underground level in Block G.. and the timing was just nice when it was sunset....

Loving God's Creation..

Tg Tualang....

2009-09-20T16:54:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday got woke up at 12pm while I was soundly sleeping and was pulled by dad and dragged to the car and head on to Tg Tualang for lunch... Well...i was thinking that alot of people have told me about it and yet I haven't been dere before...so i took my Nicole along for a check out...

Went there and i didnt noe i've been there before coz i used to take a route to Tronoh with Yamamoto for fishing by passing by that town each time we headed back and forth. So i was like...wat? this is tg tualang ar??hmm oklu...

So we went to the town and find the restaurant where everyone was talking about...i didnt noe the restaurant name but den i remembered its a corner shop..and GAWD! dere are alot of seafood restaurant there...well for those who still haven't been there...these are the food u'll expect when u ordered coz these are the famous dishes...

This is a picture where i took...this is how the restaurant looked like in the interior....

The best dish that they served me.. coz got alcohol in these prawns..hehe...that was the biggest prawn i ate in my whole life..well, havnt eat lobster before so this is the biggest prawn i ate..

The next three dishes....vege was nice too....and another flavored prawns and crabs

Dunno wats this dish called...i tink its soya sauce prawns..

Next is the crab...hmm...ma ma dei ni ar....its kinda small and i love crabs and definitely its not the best cooked crab eaten by me...^^

The sadness in their eyes and our savagefully dripping watery mouth....slurpz.....

Oh yea...next to the restaurant are some stalls their which sells alot of things....and that uncle was so damn happy when my nicole took sum pictures....tot im sum reporter wor...swt....asked me put on tv or internet...aiyaya....well uncle...blog considered rite??Haha...

Me dad and mom went that noon....4 dishes costed us rm92 bucks...i dunno its cheap anot but den again....its not that fun though....small town....not tat satisfyin for me though....coz all i was thinking.....WAS SITIAWAN!!! thodi and huge salted steam CRABS!!! OH DAMN!!

Finals here i come!!

2009-09-10T21:40:00.000-07:00

ITs gonna be 1pm and my finals starts at 2.30pm...my paper should be ok today...but nonetheless....it might be not...this intense feeling is always scary and sumtimes...lecturers can just con you right on your face making you a fool...

So no matter what happens...life still goes on...lets make the best out of this...MARCH ON GUYS!!!

Struggling

2009-09-10T03:11:00.000-07:00

Im stuck in a bad situation where i find myself in a deep shit....I dun want to throw away my exam and surely i dun wanna fail any of my subjects...my coursework marks are already super low but yet problems keep coming in...Y is that??

If God were to ask me..Victor, is 24hours a day enough??i would say NO! and i how i wish sleeping and resting for only 4 hours is enough to fully regen your body after the whole day... then i can study and concentrate den find time to relax a little bit and the remaining hours of my days to be with her.

I know she's sad but i need have my own personal space at times. I need to study... I want to be with you and hw i wished i can study at ur place at the same time but i cant..i dunno why i cant concentrate when im with you...im onli concentrating on you..i guess i need to learn how to adapt but its hard and its quite late to learn now coz my finals starts tomorrow.

All i can say is give me time...after finals ill pay all my time to you and redeem myself again.. Im sorry for all the misunderstanding.

P/S : I LOVE YOU

This is my 70th post and im not proud of it

2009-09-06T17:34:00.000-07:00

Me myself being the youngest in the family doesnt gave me any privilages. I was dislike by my own brother since young and being lazy doesnt lead me to a top student as well therefore always letting down my parents with my so called hidden "smartness". Having tons of friends doesnt make you popular as well cost having more friends means neglecting the ones i loved especially my own girlfriend. I admit myself im definitely not a prince charming where every girls wants me coz im not even a leng chai and my attitude aint that good either. I run away from problems sometimes when it gives me headaches and Im not a sweet talker as well, what goes out from my mouth sometimes are just pure rubbish and nonsense and best of all, just to save the awkward condition.

But despite all this, I still wanna give my best to things which i cherished the most and also to the person i love. Love is never a circle,love has corners which means corners in life down the road of both parties faces problems but then again love doesnt have holes either coz the line connects which also brings the meaning of no matter how much fights and quarrels both parties had..Things can be figured out and solved. All there is left is to draw the line till the end by both sides and give and take frm each other. Sacrifices is always a part of it where one party slows down the drawing but the other party will continue IF ever both loves each other.

And i can still say this : Im not perfect coz God never made us that way. Lets each of us take this step where we fall down together and learn lessons of life together and making our love stronger each day.

P/s : I love you

Cameron with Classmates.

2009-09-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

How many of u guys agreed that normally a planned trip never works out well?? I agreed most of the time though..This trip to cameron was a so damn sudden that its the next day. We went up around 3plus with 5 of us. Let the pictures talk guys...

The kid and Melody in Utar waiting For NAvin to hand up his assignment b4 goin cameron

A pit stop b4 going to cameron.

Saw horses while going up. I wonder what they gonna do there..

A wonderful View during the journey up to Brinchang

Weather was getting colder and seems like friends are getting crazier too

Let me tell you...These guys are super big time posers

Reached the butterfly Garden and saw these "mengandung fish"!! omg...super huge

Testing my macro shots

Attendance of the day: Ramesh,Surin,Navin and Melody

I got big fat tummy leh T.T

Navin found his species....

Lol...Spot the fake leaf man...Its called leaf insect

See these bugs before??

Model of the day

King Grasshopper

Nice rite...can do wallpaper wei...

=.="" these wan.....put wallpaper got nightmare for 1 year

Spotted these cicak....macam doggy style wei the way the fella stand

blur face with a freakin nice position on how to cling to a branch...

Went for shopping after that,suprisingly most of the shops were closed on that day. Kinda frustrated though....but we manage to find some of the shops so we went jalan jalan....

Brokeback Kampar

Melody's face very scary leh!

After that went to brinchang STEAMBOAT!!! The best in town i tell you!!most of all its not even expensive!!

Tomyam Vs Herbal Soup

Loving the veges and prawns!!

Dinner is served~~

After a superb lovely satisfactory dinner..We went to try out the cameron starbucks! i Love Starbucks!!!

Chocolate Cream Chips!!! Mua favourite!!

Looks cool though the place

After a cup of blended and with a super full tummy..time for a walk....this is in Tanah Rata

Due to overdose of chocolates...people tend to fight very fast!and move super fast too....

OH yea..we bought liquor too....Lychee liquor which cost us onli rm15 per bottle!! hahaa....

The story begins.. 1 fine day, these young man was listening to his brother's story about the culture of an indian that they onli live on the a phrase..."3D" Drink, Drunk, Drama.....

After telling that story they thank the Lord for giving humans all types of liquor and hoping that heaven could be a super huge vineyard or sumthing like that

They were dancing and drinking and the saw these chinese guy and they were suprised...so they start dancing and singing and do all they can do to get the chinese boy's attention tinking maybe the chinese boy can get sum high class liquor for them.....

These two boys were doing almost everything including whacking the lamp post but they failed to get the chinese boy's interest in them..Noone was hurt during this picture taking..

The younger brother got tired though but not the elder brother. So he starts humping the lamp post instead thinking maybe the chinese guy is a gay but as again..The chinese boy ignored....And then the elder bro had a plan in mind.....

While the chinese boy was off guard, the elder bro took one of the liquor bottle and "SUMBAT" into the chinese's boy ass...

The chinese boy was killed and the two brothers got all the money and property and headed to the nearest bar....3D!!!

The END

Mua new Beloved Toy

2009-08-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

Got my new beloved toy last week and im having much of satisfaction from her. LOL! She just captures the right feel to every single moment. Having her is the best toy i ever had. However, purchasing her is almost heartburning and a lil bit emotional. As the phrase said, everyone has a price rite??^^ she really cost alot man but after purchasing her, there are no regrets at all.

Having said that, come to think of it, she's worth it coz of the package the dealer gave me. The price i paid was rm3050 plus a extra gadget along with other merchandise. Damn she's hawt! Everyone wants a piece of her! XD

Ok...Cut the bullshitz....introducing my sexy lady....i named her Nicole. ^^

A view from Behind...

A seducing front view.. ^^

Was abit blur when i start using this toy but soon enough...its kinda user friendly so....not much of a problem...The manual did a great job teaching me on some of the basic things. And she is so damn addictive!! lol... i love my camera alot and Insya-allah... ill get to be pro and start buying other lenses and taking more perfect pictures!

adv : DRAGONICA! JOIN Me AND RULE Server!

2009-08-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

So many on9 games nowadays but one that is actually uprising and getting above the top gaming list would be this.... DRAGONICA!

The cuteness attracts me and also mostly females..haha... so wat do u guys thinking huh??try hookin up girls while u're at home...not that bad rite? bsides...getting to noe more friends which have the same interest would be fun too... so.....JOIN ME and Rule the server!!

DRAGONICA

a small dinner frm kampar itself

2009-08-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

Back to kampar and definitely enjoyed myself at KL... Special thanks to RokChin, M3lv, Terence, Mabel, King Mun,XioWei(sai sai lap), and frm kampar itself Bernard and YINYIN!!

eventhough some of you guys didnt attend but its fine with me..haha..no worries!!

Pictures from kl ill upload soon when it reaches me...hehe... had a dinner just now with jeanling,hongweng and wawa...haha...wawa cooked these dishes for me...casual dinner but i appreciate it..hehe...

p/s : broke my freakin specs and im actually typing this post half blinded...lol.....

luncheon meat and curry chicken!! my tummy gonna start burning!!!

Close shot

tasty Curry chicken though...and i did get a heartburn-.-

oh yea...got soup sumore..hehe...chun punya soup!!

THE REAL COOK FOR THE DAY!! haha...WAWA!!

THANKS FOR THE DINNER!!!!

oh yea....after coming back frm kl....i got bruises....swt....i dun even noe wat happened to me....

Both legs....

Right leg

Left leg...swt.........

MY MOVIE POSTER.....

2009-08-03T07:34:00.000-07:00

Done this in one night and im freaking pleased with it....share it with u guys...haha.... *not bragging but im proud that im able to do this*hahaha......

Hard to get Cheap Bras?? i dun reli think so......

2009-08-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

I have been told that getting cheap bras are kinda hard... but last friday.... I saw this.... and im shocked...

ITS SO FREAKING CHEAP... and look closely.....

Before would be rm1.90?? omg...wtf wei.... i cant even imagine who would buy such cheap bras....would it just fall off half way wearing??? or split in to two?? @@

What happens when u stay in a kopitiam FOR DAMN TOO LONG!!!

2009-08-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

My ever 1st receipt that shocked me.... Broke my record for eating in Kopitiam with 8 people.. i mean 8 HUNGRY people...lol....

At a Crossroad

2009-07-30T15:13:00.000-07:00

No matter what other people say and countless of ideas was given to me... ill still be waiting for you and i am looking forward to it. Yes or No leads to two different roads and both these answers brings much difference.

However though, being yes or no, ill still cherish the answer and i respect ur answer. I've been trying not to screw up things so much that i actually forgotten how it 1st felt that i fall in love with you. I've been thinking too much to the point that i didn't care about how u felt and I'm really sorry for being so selfish.

I do hope that this 21st Birthday of mine would be a super memorable one and special to me though but yet again the final decision is still on you girl..Lets just say, Love can be the happiest thing in your life BUT yet again, it could be saddest thing that can happen in your life.

H1N1....wash ur body please...LOL

2009-07-28T21:40:00.000-07:00

You Don't Have to Think TwiCe

2009-07-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

If you're asking me whether i will hurt u....I wudnt hurt the one i loved the most...

I will cherish you till the very day...i leave this world...

Hope You can sing this song as I did last time....

2009-07-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

As said in title...hope u can sing this song in days to come....and sing it with proud my friend.....be strong.....

These Hard times.....

2009-07-17T12:15:00.000-07:00

Well...this song is originally dedicated to cancer patients all around the world...but sometimes the words are found to be suitable even in our daily life and in this occasion..im dedicating this song to my friends...who are experiencing difficulties and find it hard to overcome these obstacles....just stay strong and never give up...
Beyoncé:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up

Sheryl Crow:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyoncé:
You need to know

Chorus (Sheryl Crow):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up

Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé:
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust if off
Don't let up

LeAnn Rimes:
Don't you know you

Natasha Bedingfield:
Can go

LeAnn Rimes:
Be your own

Natasha Bedingfield:
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

(Chorus-All)

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

(Chorus All)

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Ffind it within
Find it within you
Find it within

P/S: All the best in ur test tommorrow and hope to see you soon....hugx...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN YIN!!!

2009-07-17T03:58:00.000-07:00

I hope i did made ur day a happier day and hope i get the right gifts for you though...not mentioning bout the price tag tat is...=.=

I wudn't say what i did in your birthday is the best i could give you but i would rather say it there are more to come...^^ huggies!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN!!

Lets see what will i write when i emo without connection and opened a notepad and started typing randomly...

2009-07-15T14:26:00.001-07:00

Being in the place where i am now, is definitely not what i expected
Never would have thought that me and you would end up like this
On this fragile relationship, i wanna be perfect and im sorry for screwing it up
Been thinking of you every single moment even though i miss the very presence of you
Right beside me sitting next to me
I wish i would have been more sensitive and considerate about you

I love you and these feelings are ever true
I would giv up the world just being with you
It doesn’t really matter how we screw things up but its how we patch things up
Hoping you would understand how i felt about you and giving me a chance to love you

I swear it again and again that forever ill be at ur side
Next to you is where I belong now side by side
Faults made into perfection is my promise to you
Please come back to me

I begged, I pleaded......and im waiting for you
A week, a month, a year
How long you need to take...ill be waiting
For a chance to heal this relationship

I’ve been pretending that im fine with my friends
And i couldn’t hold the heartache that im going thru
Thinking how could this happened
The things i used to love to do
Now it seems im doing it blindly
I lost my addiction to drugs
Coz you’re my new addiction
And there is nothing i found to replace you

Friends told me it’s not worth it
But im not letting go because you
You are special, and im not moving a single step

Watching you suffering like this
I cant stand the pain and the guilt
And every morning when i woke up
I whisper a prayer to God
He’ll give you a better day to live on

This is what i wrote when i randomly opens a notepad and started typing yesterday..

When words rUns out...its the lyrics of songs that helps out...

2009-07-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

This is all i can express myself now.....

2009-07-14T04:19:00.000-07:00

I dunno wat to say anymore to u... i guess all i did to uthru out the days i knew u....hope it will end up sumwhere sumhow....im really sorry and this song is all i got to say to you now....ill be waiting...

I cant bear to see the way you are now....forgive me

ITs you..The one and only

2009-07-09T01:07:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since i update my blog now....sigh.. desperately need my fon back...ish!! so many things happened these few weeks.... but ill onli post about 1 thing in this post though...

Its onli to her....the one i loved the most.... the very person hu can make my gloomy days to the most memorable days in my life... the very person i prayed to God that i really wanna be with...

Its not that i cant wait for you....ive been thinking a lot and being with you could be a brand new chapter in our life that will take us to another level of experience of life...why not give it a try and start now..(not forcing) hehe...Fears that u fear that will come again and haunt u, u have to overcome it and no1 can eventually help u coz this is sumthin u need to face it urself...but no matter what...ill do my very best not to disappoint u....tats my word to u..............

P/S : I love you

A place Where I wanna be...

2009-06-18T14:51:00.000-07:00

Its gonna be 6am now and i cant afford to sleep due to i need to pass up my Multimedia Tools for Advertising assignment tomorrow. Therefore i have to stay wide awake until i pass it up then ill be meeting my sweet dreams.

What else can i do in kampar when its 6am..=.="

Well, when i was chatting with yinyin, i asked her which place does she wanna go and she said Paris.. But for me.. been wanting to go to Venice, Italy for a long time. Fall in love with that place because of its unique structure of the whole town which is actually on sea water and i do really wanna take a vacation(if i have the $) and visit that place and freakin try a real pizza how it really taste like..haha!!

An Evening view of Venice..

Another part of Venice

Im loving this place more and more...

No car accidents...but mayb boat accidents??xD

If this is how it looks like out of people windows, people might not get killed when dey jumped out of their building.. if dey did drown and died..at least less work to do for the cleaners...no blood stain...XD

Celebrating Vivian's Bday and also the breaking record of numbers of michaelians got killed that nite...

2009-06-15T04:42:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday was the day Vivian had her house warming and also celebrating her 21st bday!! The new house she had was.......huge....and even though i stay quite near to her place like 5-10minutes drive....i didn't noe that her area existed where rich people buy the land and build their own houses there...

The 1st she lead me to her house when i fetched her back i was kinda suprised and amazed...that i didn't noe that place existed...lol...Anyhow...the party started at 7pm but i reached dere a lil bit early...just to cure my boredom in my house..Met Siew Wei,Evon, Mun Yee, Peipei(accompanied by her bf which onli that day she intro me to him..zzzz) which were my schoolmate friends in form 6...and also not forgetting Bernerd, Mabel, Myke, Casey, Weng Fai, and Panda!!...

Seriously this party....is damn happening....food is superbly nice!! all kinds of food....so much to drink....and the best crowd ever...happening uncles and aunts....lol....Where can u find a happening party that supplies all this man?haha....

Here are sum pictures and vids that happened that nite to those hu missed it...

Yummy buffet....all made by the aunties that present..

Still have some left overs......

Delicious desserts.....

Dragon Fruit jelly...damn nice.....

Ipoh Garden East luk luk....

Ipoh Garden East Laksa...

Addictive Roast Duck

After eating and fulfilling our tummy's desires.....we kinda hang around and chit chat after all...its been a while since we met each other....oh yea..and celebrated vvian's bday....and den.....it came with a silent footsteps and seducing taste of perfume....that kills most of us that very nite....

Hypnotic and Patron(tequila)

3 of these guys to wipe out our group.....

Martell and Gold Label...Friends for life??xD

And this cute lil one...is our pressie to Vivian from me,myke,bnerd and panda......v didnt open it coz if not i'll be sleeping outside the roadside that very night....

Tequila for everyone!!!!

Followed by Jello SHOTS!!!

Cheers mate....maple is the onli 1 without a cup and panda is looking at someone else...=.= i wonder....

im in love with martell...haha....

Mabel was given a love kiss by vivian...haha....

Vivian's Bday Celebration...... and also girls drinking shots......(sorry bout the camera view=.=)

Myke and gang singing this song to vivian...Panda is the camera man and i was bz drinking...haha...

and just when the party was going to end...they put up this song....xD

Well...the party ended up like 1-2am if not mistaken coz by that time...im kinda bz vomitting...haha... damn...got killed....panda joined in the fun too...lol....thx to bernerd myke and mabel for taking care of us especially bernerd...he wasnt that bad that nite....but sumhow...i still dunno how he ended up instead of driving bac to his house he ended up in taiping....u s2pid boy!! and reached back ipoh at 7am...while all of us reach home safely in 1 trip...haha.....

Indeed it was fun and a memorable one...Thx Vivian!!and HAPPY 21st BirThDAY!!!

Easy to live a Succesful life in Malaysia...

2009-06-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

OK...new babe is in the town...and yesterday early morning 12am where i was in uncle two snooker centre KAMPAR!!, my second most beloved baby that served me so long.....went missing!! got stolen.....damn was i mad! emo the whole night and pissed..cursing the bloody thief and wish his head will get stucked in the toilet bowl for 1week and some SM spanking his ass till it bleeds....

Fortunately there is sum1 that went thru the whole process with me and i really appreciate it..ok...NExT day, after school went to Digi centre and retrieve back my number...and suddenly i got a msg frm an unknown number...

I got a feeling that bloody bastard was using my fon and smsing to his friend and damn was i right! i called up the number n found out its a girl(bitch) and i asked sum questions and i told her the truth...

To cut the story short....she played with me and act s2pid and ended up not replyin my smses and ignore my calls... Later on that night after my dinner i went to the police station and GAWD!!! REGRETTED COZ IT WAS A WASTE OF TIME AND IM TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED!!

Its not about the thief anymore but its about the "people" (especially ppl that takes care of the counter where u giv ur report)that was supposed to be paid to do their job that ended up useless bunch of rubbish meant to be thrown right in to the outer space...I was being questioned and i gave all the answers including explaining the situation where i suspected the biatch was helping out the thief..

But there is a question where i was jammed and went blank....here was the dialogue how it happened...

Dumbarse : jadi...aper tujuan nak buat laporan ni??
Victor/Me : *blink blink* sebab saya mau dapat telefon(telipon is how he spelt it) saya balik....
Dumbarse : yea ler....itu saya tau...tapi aper tujuan u nak buat laporan ni???
Victor/Me : o.O"" sebab saya mau dapat telefon saya balik lar....

It went on the 3rd time and he makes me sounded like im not answering his question...seriously...dumbfarkz =X after that...he gave up on me tryin to get away with his laziness and called up the sarjan....which he kinda right in front of me talked bad about me sayin im being ignorant and persistant....damn...if not because of the badge he's wearing i wud just screw him up..

AFter that...he asked me to go up 3rd floor room 2 to see the sarjan which is a lady....so i went up with yinyin and i asked her...when he said tingkat 3 does he count the ground floor as well or wat? yinyin answered shudnt be...so we went up and we ended up right at the highest floor...complaining no lift..haha...even UTAR has it!! b PROUD UTARIANS!!
and guess wat....it was so dark...and i asked an officer...what floor is this and he said tingkat 4...WTF wei....went 3rd floor....oso DARK!! den i asked another officer where is this sarjan and he said not tis floor...1 floor below....SWT!! dat ass doesnt even noe how to count....

thank God the officer was kind enuf to lead me to the particular room and the sarjan was kinda rude at me....talking bout khidmat mesra...MY ARSE! she asked me this very 1st question that pissed me the most....she asked...kenaper lewat sangat u baru mau report...sudah hampir 24 jam...den i answered...belum 24jam masih boleh report ma....she like damn bengang...and raised her voice...Tapi Hampir...once again...khidmat mesra...salutes the "people"!!

Again i remained s2pid and answered her questions coz she's writing my report....but few questions are kinda valuable to be posted here...allow me peeps...

"Sarjan" : Mana you letak you punya handfon?
Victor : meja..
"Sarjan" : meja aper?
Victor : meja snooker...
"Sarjan" : *type*type* itu bukan meja lar...itu papan snooker....
*silent* sounds of FEW OWLS fills the night of that room*
Victor : *blurring* orh...(tinking to myself..which part of table is called a papan...zzzzz)
"Sarjan" : *type type* u pergi sana dengan siapa??
Victor : kawan...
"Sarjan" : nama kawan?
Victor : Benjamin
"Sarjan" : aper??benjamin?? *type type*
Victor : (noticed on the monitor it was written as....Ben Ja Min...) voiced out : itu name benjamin satu perkataan puan...
"Sarjan" : yea ker??ok....ini lelaki ker perempuan??
Victor : *FAINTED* lelaki puan....(INSIDE WAS LMFAO)
"Sarjan" : ooh....nama ni....cina ker???
Victor : YES CINA!!=.=

OMG....i tell you...it was a torture just layaning these uneducated ppl...i mean...they are totally not citizen friendly...and gawd...this is why malaysia is lacking...seriously.... these people need to stop acting all clever and please...bumiputra are much more advance den dem in terms of mentality and i bet bumiputra are much more better if they have the chance to gain education since "these" people just forcefully claim these land...

ALL ENDED UP IN 1 hour plus and i find it a total waste of time due to their laziness and unfriendliness...and i got con for rm2...well its not like im kiamsap but all these nonsense for rm2??its not worth it at all....

At the end of the day.... I told yinyin...if i were to quit my studies...and join in...in 1 year...i wud be a sarjan...in 2 years i wud be in bukit aman and 3rd or 4th year...u guys wud see me in TV handling sum serious or sum big time asskicking case man....damn....

New baby in Town!!!

2009-06-09T02:18:00.000-07:00

Well...since government has approved a loan to me...well....talked with mom bout the new usage of the loan....she agreed to let me buy a new stuff when the loan comes...well....i freakin got it now!! haha....

White is always my favourite color and closest to white wud b silver...so this is my new gadget......C905

The front view...

When it slides.....

Close up view

Close Up view 2

Side view

The C00lest part!! taking shot!!!haha......

KHAYalaN mASa

2009-06-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

Ku rasa bagaikan malam ini terang
Sungguh indah, seindah sinarnya
Terdengar dalam khayalan masa itu
Mungkin itu mimpi-mimpi dunia

Dalam senyap ku, ku tertanya
Ku tersenyum dalam bayanganmu

Menanti-nanti selama ini menunggukan cinta
Biar rasa ini bertahan untuk selama kita

Ku simpan kata mu terpahat dalam hati
Biarkan masa meniti jalanku
Diriku di sini tetap di sini
Hingga akhirnya kita berjumpa lagi

Dalam senyap ku, ku tertanya

Menant-nanti selama ini menunggukan cinta
Biar rasa ini bertahan untuk selama kita

Telah kau semarakan hidupku
Sayang, ini pesananku
Pedulikan berapa jauh kau berada
Aku sanggup tunggu masanya

Dalam kisah ku melayang-layang
Menarilah kita bersama-sama

That's the way it Is babeh...^^

2009-05-31T13:18:00.000-07:00

Love conquers it all...there is no easy way out...hehe....have faith girl....

I Just Got HIT by an arrow from the cupid......

2009-05-30T11:41:00.000-07:00

It seems like some things just aren't the same,
what could i say?
I need a lil more luck than a lil bit,
cuz everytime i get stuck
the words won't fit,
and everytime i try i get tongue tied
i'll need a lil good luck to get me thru....

Damn....serious girl...... i really can't speak my heart out...never forgetting how your eyes are coz they are just the most beautiful thing i ever seen in this world...well...i do noe sometimes it might just be too soon but nvr the less....to be with the one you love...ill give all the time in the world just to be with you....For ME...Its Only YOu.....

Results is out!~~

2009-05-25T22:22:00.000-07:00

Wei results is out and woohooo damn im happy....well at least i got an A for my Communicative English...yea babeh...its not A- its A babeh....lol...farking happy i wud say....konon alot of ppl cant get A for CE....hehe...well i did....lol.....boasting giler ni...lol

other den dat....normal ni ler...hehe...janji tak fail...LOL.....

untitled.....

2009-05-25T13:04:00.000-07:00

OH GAWD....2day wasnt a really pleasent day for me... Went back home around 7plus in the morning...damn...freakin tired...havin a bad headache....but as i was driving back home....school buses are spotted and sumhow i reminds me of school days...well...although i didnt take school bus last time but den again....it still brings u back to the old days where u come to school earlier...have a short time of gathering with ur friends chatting and some half asleep..line up when the bell rings..assembly and hear teachers talkin what dey dun even noe...line up at frien's class' line and get caught and so much more..those times man...priceless i tell u....

HAHa...ended up with a smirk and came back to reality and drove back....even its morning...its still freakin hot man...came bac get wash on the face n head on to bed...still having my headache and sumhow....its a lil bit hard forcing my brain to chill for awhile...and heard my mom woke up n get rdy to work....damn...lucky i was in my bed...if not...wat else babeh....speech of the adulthood....

Woke up at 3-4plus...damn....i wud hav guessed....my nose is starting a marathon on its own....FLU JOR......sigh....didnt enjoyed much 2day though...coz i was half dead thru out the whole day..haha....

Anyway....dearest serena...dun worry lar k.... DO HAVE A GREAT JOURNEY 2MORO TO KL AND HAV FUN....btw...thursday that cameron plan...myke agreed...whether he ffk is another thing lar...but for now...ITS ON!! ngekz.....

When Night Brings Life TO All.....

2009-05-21T23:16:00.000-07:00

Alrite Alrite... I watched movie yesterday night!! AFTER SO DAMN LONG SINCE I WENT CINEMA...FINALLY!!! haha... Im still waiting for some shows to come out though....but holding my horses though...The movie is called Night at The Museum 2...

The 1st was kinda hilarious but i didnt expect the 2nd wan wud b a blast and funny man..haha...they do have some lame jokes inside the movie but others was...phew....lawak antarabangsa....

And this...this is the Trailer for the movie....I even laughed at the Trailer....

ACting my ARse....Fvcked up Day!!

2009-05-14T12:55:00.000-07:00

Sigh....woke up at 9plus...got gastric...den vomit....tot of ffking eric but den try my best to go... luckily nothin happened when i went out...went to nasmir and parked my car n follow the crew member to tronoh...mana tau 1st question he asked....u got short pants ar=.=
i was like got..but at home...so he eventually drove me all the way bac to my home n take my freakin pants...zzz...swt....tot that the shooting will starts at 10.30am...and while he was on the way bac to take my pants...msg came said the shootin starts at 1.30pm...

Sien dou....nvm lor....eat bfast lor...den go lor...reach at 1.00pm...BABI BETUI....wait like shit and the bloody thin onli starts at 3.30plus..more den 2freakin hours...luckily got sum1 to teman me and yin to sms with...if not gg lar me...

the whole bloody thing was a new experience though but nvrtheless...patience aint my thin...i can for a moment but den...not that long...took 2hours solid of acting n acting...omg... finally v get our break at 5.30pm and come bac at 7.45pm sharp....den hor... tot can go makan n chill for awhile...the crew member say follow him mar...ikut jer lar...

MANA TAU...end up back at ipoh coz he wanna fetch his wife lar...den another relative lar...travel here n dere....take this take dat...when avthin was finished in ipoh...its already like 7.35pm...i was like wtf wei...how lar...still in ipoh...its not like frm east go south u noe...its freakin far...waa....reached bac tronoh around 8plus...my gawd...the other crew members was kinda pissed coz of the bad timing n stuff....n wat kinda pissed me n my friend off was...de bloody crew member that fetched us put the blame on us...saying he have to wait for me n my friend....mutha ar.... i kinda dulan and so is my frien but v didnt say anythin lar...old d mar..giv face lar..janji ada rm80...

Reached dere have to get changed....changed into those pagoda singlets...dang.... old skul wei... nvm...den dey started shootin and v werent in the scene at all...lol...waited for like another 2hours for fvckz.... when finally director say can go bac...damn...u hav no idea how happy was i...and i freakin got my rm80...yeah babeh....but the acting experience wasnt that fancy at all...

So went back to east and yumcha lor...played snooker with friens and yumcha again....and its like 3plus and its time to go bac...wow...TIS IS WHERE IT KINDA FARKED MY WHOLE DAY OFF.... road was slippery and i was taking the roundabout of ipoh garden...my gawd...my freakin sunline lost control...and i cant turn...i wasnt driving fast its like 60kmph....my car cudnt turn...and i breaked n it went straight...

I was like...shit man...this is gonna be a bad wan....i was like gonna imagine myself flying thru the drain and end up in maybank...but thank god...the car kinda slow down eventhough it still hit hard...one of my tire went down the drain but i forcefully turn the car to the right and force my car to come out back....after that...i realise i cudnt move my car...luckily one of my friend ah hong was following bhind n kinda saw...so he stopped by n help...i looked at my car...damn...left tire puncture and alignment was out and rim was dented...this is gonna b a serious shit i tell u....

I can freaking bet my DAD gonna fark my ass up the siling and mom looking disappointed n nag at me the whole month....i dunno wat to do lar now... hong was kind enuf to offer me a ride home n advise me get a toll truck to toll my car for fixing...coz he said midnite sure freakin expensive n slaughter u...so i took his advise and headed home...damn was i worried but not shocked...more worried bout my parents how dey gonna "slaughter" me...but i do thank God for keeping my life safe...

U noe wat guys...i tink i hav to take that hard earn money today and at least help a lil bit into the car fixing tomorrow...no idea how to tell my parents....sigh... What a nightmare...coz i kinda feel sumthin is wrong today durin yumcha but i got no idea wat is it...Another accident....Another mistake for driving an old car...

Acting....@@""

2009-05-13T13:26:00.000-07:00

OMG... i jz came bac...and guess what...i got pulled in to sum acting keh leh feh thx to panda... gonna go tronoh to act sum shit out(hope no dialog coz i dunno wat will happened) and get paid for rm80..lol...in despo for agung's face recently...hehe... hmm....i wonder hw will it turned out to be...the show is called..."prince charming"(in canto) and the director is...Ah Niu...damn...i might end up callin myself ah Diu..XD

Well...for the sake of rm80... i might just giv it a try...Cross Finger.... tot of ffk at the 1st place but friend said its like promise ppl d...so cant...oh damn.... paiseh leh...lets check it out...start work at 10am and ends at 10pm...O.o""

Lets YUMCHA after that!! hehe...

3 Weeks of What We Called...Free Time....

2009-05-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

2Day is our last paper and sem break starts....2 b honest...im not used to it...but on the hand...im happy coz im not in kampar anymore...im startin to hate that place...hope next sem will b different..

How wud i spend my free time den?? hmm...i wud say i wanna go yumcha with all my best buddies that is in ipoh...all my long lost friends....damn i miss u guys...u wudnt have guess how suffering i was to be in a different group n clicks and honestly speaking...its super hard to talk and share things with people which is from different point of view....i miss my gang....

Btw rokz..if i got time n money.....ill come n find u and also melv...haha...well...for those in ipoh...mabel,maple,panda,godsis,and wyip n hopefully benji comes bac...haha... u guys r my yumcha gang!! im waiting for chun pui as well...dang!! LETS GO CLUB BABEH...hahaha...

hmm... oh ya...my close classmates!! gonna miss u guys though even its onli 3weeks...and kumara, esther, seng hoe...damn... i do wonder when will i ever see u guys again...sigh....

ANYHOW....IPOH!! IM BACK TO ROCK ON!!!

This is what i want to say

2009-05-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

Im really gonna miss you....

Just a Call Away [FINALIZED]

2009-04-20T06:23:00.000-07:00

lol....so far this is what i got and cant really upload the song yet...coz i cant reli find any software dat does the synchronizing of the guitar and the voice...any1 has??

Its now completed and this song is dedicated to all my friens which is goin to other place to study all also to those of my close friends which is already in all around the world studyin.... take care guys!

Verse 1:

Friendship is like a river
friends come n go jz like a flowing stream
making a friend is as simple as a handshake
but best friends is the time of ur life

Chorus:

the wish i have,this friendship will never end
a never ending journey between us
a blessing to all my friends my very best
just a call away, to show our love

Verse 2:
When friends all around the world
Few things will always gather us
The memories, the laughter we shared
and the pain we go through
Friends is all we have

FINALLY ITS DONE..... along with the tune as well....

Movin 4ward

2009-04-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

Well...Its time to let thins cool down...and concentrate....forgetting bout it...
What is yours....is yours...hehe...
Finals is jz around the corner and my priorities need to be set properly...5 subject to handle and monday is the starting point...Wishing all the best to all and have fun doing it guys!!

hmm...still pondering...shud i start writing songs again??

Sad & Happy

2009-04-15T15:56:00.000-07:00

Today is a day of mix feelings...sad and happy for her... but to be honest...i do feel happy for her and i don't mind...coz i will sacrifice my time in my future just to see her...and i wouldn't mind doing anything just to see her face and spending time with her..

Tell me...what im feeling...isn't some mistake

2009-04-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

Days are counting by and going fast...and time seems merciless to me... the time to spend with you and getting to noe u is coming to an end... and all i can do...is just stand n wait n wait...all i can do is to hand it to God and let Him make things happened....hehe.... but my feelings...damn...its sad....This Song is to the girl i loved...

GOin thru the old phase again.....

2009-04-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

Remember when u guys were in love??and watever u guys do and where u guys at.....u juz miss the person u love so madly and its like witout the person bside you,you can't just be yourself.....

and wat more....she doesn't show any interest in you...lol....ain't that hard?? its always come in this kinda manner...the person u wanted the most just doesn't seems to care and people that u are not interest....they just keep comin and comin and comin...not to say being selfish but in love we do need to make a decision rite?hehe....

Your heart aches watchin the one u love doesn't bother bout u...and it seems like this love is impossible...am i being confused about what i really want/am i really in love or its just not our destiny???

this Crush...aint going away

2009-04-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

Well...this past few weeks....i wud hav say im acting weird=.= swt man... i not being myself at times when i see her and it seems everything about her just makes me feel like...happy and she's attractive...

I'm sure whether its a crush or am i really in love with her... i really dunno...and rejection is not what im afraid of..is what the outcome of the rejection after that is what im afraid of...hmm... there are so many things i wanted to say to her but i guess it aint the right time yet and i myself...from the situation... i tink im the only one tepuk sebelah tangan..sigh...i dunno and i sux at sensing all this... Hope i can figure tis out sooner or later...patience is what i need and step by step is wat i need to do....

Loving tis song so much...haha...

2009-04-03T04:59:00.000-07:00

Taking back my love babeh....

Enrique:
Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

Ciara:
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do), you've made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl
You're out of control (So what?), how could you let go (Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material

Both:
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Enrique:
So all this love I give you, take it away, (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You think material's the reason I came, (Unh, uh huh)
Enrique:
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
Ooh, my love

Time to give some respect....

2009-03-21T06:23:00.000-07:00

After this post...everythin will be gone...my hatred and my anger...

Seriously...u hav crossed the line...u have done enuf...and enuf is enuf... you r being inconsiderate and very selfish of urself and most important of all...u are SENSITIVE, OFFENSIVE AND RUDE...

i dunno wat has gone into u but how u reacted today is way too much and i cant stand it anymore... I really dunno wat in the hell i did...so what if i said the word whatever?? Does tat freaking mean that u can just blow up avthin on me??? IF u FIND OFFENSIVE U TALK PROPERLY TO ME!! please look again at the way u msg me....is that how u treat a friend and is that how u asked for help??

PLEASE MIND UR MANNERS.... u farked me just bcoz u're sensitive and u ended up not saying sorry...im proud to say bravo..u're acting like a jerk now...seriously...dun say im being mean to u and not respecting you....u read the msg urself...i was being good and ask a small favor n u freaking letup on me....

You are not being friendly and guess what...i dun freakin mind...i will nvr let u pull my life down again...I WILL NOT...say wat u want to say...and be free to tink of any image of me...i seriously dun care...coz wat u did today...finalize everything i hav concluded bout u....

You say u're not..but time will tell....btw...i do hav my weakness and im proud of it coz i noe which wan i need to improve...im making my way up to the top... and thx for reminding me on how naive and stubborn u are....i guess what i've been trying to say didnt go into ur mind...all u remember is Victor is a farked up person...lalala~~~ now...this is where i shud be saying....WHATEVER!!!

MY deepest Condolence

2009-03-12T10:12:00.000-07:00

I just got this news and i got the shocked of my life.. Seriously i didnt noe wat to do when i heard this and eventhough i didnt liked her last time but then again...let bygones be bygones and no matter what..she used to be my ex classmate for a year and was once my group assignment mate...time passes and everyone got their own life...

But tonight is not what i've been hoping for...listening to friend during dinner about an accident is like omg... what more after few hours... a friend told me that i knew the person.. the accident goes like this...driving fast..the car spinned and knocked into a lorry parked at the side of the road...doesnt sound serious isnt it?? but the ending said that two back passenger passed away when they are on the way to hospital and that very two passenger was her and her boyfriend..

When i heard this..my heart felt pity and seriously...not happy...i guess thats wat normal forgiving ppl would feel isnt it?hmm...This very post is dedicated to her,her family and also the boyfriend's side..

I would have guessed that both of them died due to mass lost of blood...coz wat was told in the newspaper was that when they were rushed to the kampar hospital, they dont have enough facilities and they need to be transferred to Ipoh...gawd that definately sux to the max...

I wouldnt say they deserve it coz thats not wat i am and i will say my prayers to them coz no matter what happens...a precious life is still a precious life in God's eyes and its definately not for us to decide their or even our own life span and its definitely God's will...

MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCE AND MY DEEPEST APOLOGIES JANICE...YOU WERE A FRIEND AND YOU WERE HU YOU ARE.. GOD BLESS AND REST IN PEACE..

This song is for you....

Finally.....

2009-03-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

Finally...Im singing this song..haha... yea babeh....

A thing called friends and A place named Houz

2009-03-09T11:24:00.000-07:00

Been fooling around for the whole weekend...and i still havnt touch my books yet...or shall i called notes...lol.... well...friends came back and suddenly...its like a whole bunch of dem... Myke is in ipoh which is already am for like ages already..haha... gonna miss u soon bro....Chun Pui is back too...Panda is ever ready to come out and a whole bunch of others...loving this weekend man...Kopitiam is the old spot and its always our meeting spot and this weekend...Houz is the chosen place to hang out..haha...

B4 that.... all thanks to Annie and Myke for choosing the suitable watch and also thank you to miss Chun Pui for lepaking with me the night b4 and making me walk damn fast and killing my brain cells to help u pick up a good bday gift for ur friend when JJ is closing..haha...but anyway..thx for the companion..

Been going to houz like 2days in a row... and all is left after the 2days...is beautiful memories and definitely good times...

Showmanship??XD

It all started with both friends since childhood....

And 1 of dem went nuts and got horny...the other was deeply in depression and as time flies....

The other actually went nuts and both of dem became horny...this is wat ppl wud say...horny bastards~!!

And did i say...they aint straight anymore??HAHAHA....

The Couple of the month....

Couple of the Year...=X

Hot Chick with the hornies...xD

Cutie Pie with the hornies as well...

When guys get lonely....dey tend to do s2pid and desperate actions...

AND all things starts well ends well...

Its time to move on now

2009-03-04T12:01:00.001-08:00

I guess i did provoke u in a way or another.... sorry if i did but all i said was just my point of view... U changed my life and i appreciate it... i guess here ends my stop of waiting for you... U'll have peace from now onwards...u have all my blessings in ur life... thats all i can do... BUT ABOVE ALL... THIS WHOLE JOURNEY...IS WORTH THE FIGHT....I love you...

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way... Ooohh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you, yeah. You....

You went away

2009-03-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

i guess the reason that i love you for being how you are is just not there anymore love... the very reason that keeps me loving u....the sole reason y u caught my attention all the time....is no more with you...

i see another person in you...and u are not who you are anymore...i cudnt help much now...coz its not my duty anymore...i dont hav the authority anymore... this is where i need to stop loving you... coz i finally realized that im loving the wrong person...and my eyes are open...well...do take care...

You Are Never The Girl I Once Knew

2009-03-03T10:50:00.000-08:00

Love...u did change a lot...after 2nite...i realized a lot of things that once u weren't aware of...know u knew a lot of stuff... U sounded a lot different from what you used to be... and now...what can i say....u sounded more like a working woman and fighting your way up to the world..climbing the worlds stairs....

I guess if that is what u wanted all this while..i cant really hold u from doing it... its your own choice of will besides...im not in a position to do so too....i really hope u know what u r doing...to be honest with you...I'm sad for you...for not being aware of things u should be aware of.... I guess all i can do is pray for you and one day u will finally realized those things that convincingly will bring u up high but again...it will also will u down faster when u realize that u're wrong...

Im wishing u all the best...and im praying hard that God will be dere for you..remember love...dun tink of urself being so great...coz God can just those things away from you...

i cant sleepzzzz

2009-03-02T12:45:00.000-08:00

i cant sleep 2night...and im missing you...i miss every moment of being with you... im praying hard for you to come bac at my side...pls stop playing with me....please.... U already got ur payback time...its time to come bac home...i will be with you forever...you are my all in all....you can be my queen...and ill be your clown...come on dear...

This song is playin all night long....

Its getting Worst

2009-03-02T08:27:00.000-08:00

Day 7.
Its been day 7 and it seems im getting worst n worst...i dunno y...i still cant let go of u dear...i still cant...and my love is growing stronger n stronger... everyday i've been talkin to myself and avday im dreaming that 1 day u will come back to me.. I just cant live without u and im going crazy for you...please ignore if u ever see my emails...

Im tryin to make your life easier now...

What can i say...The whole understands me but u...

2009-03-01T20:13:00.000-08:00

Deep down in my heart... I nvr ask for any1 but you love...its time for u to look at my point of view....

Still Sick

2009-03-01T07:44:00.000-08:00

Day 6.
Wake up...Jeng jeng jeng....super sick.....no appetite and no energy....flu like mad...and feverish....darn....dunno wat2do...physically sick and love sick...wat a package....sigh....

Skip church 2day and planned to go bac kampar n rest....but b4 tat went jj....window shopping abit 1st....im plannin to change my image now...muahaha...time to do sumthin to myself....my aim currently....is to get a watch...either guess or fossil and a new fon which looks classy....C905....well....wallet was in my to buy list but now its a bought list...hehe...new Fossil wallet....hmm....fossil watch not tat bad actually..hehe....changing my image....a brand new me....is wat im goin to do....

Victor is sick....zzz

2009-02-28T11:41:00.000-08:00

Day 5.
IM sick....shit....and onli 1 kilkenny did its duty....freakin drunk man.........finally...i can jz let out my feelings out...sori myke..haha....i talked alot 2day...lalala.....

My feeling speaks thru lyrics of songs again....

And i nvr fancy David Archuleta until......he actually sang this....

2009-02-28T00:24:00.000-08:00

I love this picture...this is funny...haha...

Where Yin meets Yang...lol

Two childhood friends...

This picture jz nailed it man....

Im LOVING ALL MY FRIENDS...TONS Of lOvE!!

2009-02-27T12:44:00.000-08:00

Day 4.
a day tat i start wit heartaches.... wat more didnt did tat well in my midterm test...but its ok...gonna work my arse off for my presentation... well...i need to relax myself...after so much ive been goin thru....im heading bac to ipoh to meet my beloved friends....and gawd did u guys make up my day!! Seriously...i cudnt ask for more than wat God had given me.... and yes its hard to meet u guys sumtimes but damn man...u guys stood right dere...jz closee to me to able to hold me close and hugged me when im in a bad shape and helped me up when i fall...

Chun Pui....u're the best!! seriously when im with u.... all u left in my heart...was happiness....a reason to move on and also thanks alot for being dere for me...and Myke... words cannot describe u frien... come to tink of it... Both of us r facing our own bumps in our journey...and guess wat....v slow down...and take care of each other... u noe wat... u were dere even when im not ready to face the cruel world... and v r still goin thru the bad times together...not leaving u out too tzehoe...im glad u were always been truthful to me....helpin me to be a better person and i do noe tat u cared for me...hehe...my sis told all about u when u asked bout my condition...

DEJANA!! my ever best nvr meet b4 in life CLOSEST FRIEND EVER!! u noe...i nvr regretted playin 9Dragons with you...from a hi bye friend...and now...im sharing my life with you and vice versa...haha....tell u wat....i can feel deep much of caringness from u all the way from Canada girl... u rock my world on!! xD life has been tough for me and i noe its not gonna stop just yet...but i do believe.... dat u will be dere for me till the end...haha....even till the extend of flyin here to help me out huh??GRRR...LOL....

Thinking my life wud be the worst...losing everything...startin from all over again...i guess im wrong...i overlooked dat i hav u guys and not forgetting my dearest sis Serena Tan to be with me... i didnt lose anythin but instead i gain more of lovingness from u guys...gosh...i cudnt be more thankful to u guys.. Goin to barbeza and Houz tonight is indeed not a mistake...coz its definately worth it... and serena....i wan you to be my official step sister!! haha...and pls dun smoke so much and if u got the feeling tat u dun like to smoke...nurture it and stop pls... hehe....

A BIG HUG AND LOVE FROM ME TO YOU GUYS!! GOD BLESS U ALL... HUGGIES!! <33333

Hope it Gives you Hell

2009-02-26T19:52:00.000-08:00

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you even know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Yeah, Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you're sol

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and sing along, oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
And when you sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

This is my favourite song at the moment...well it meant nothin actually...but den again...i need to listen to this song jz to enlight myself...no offence...xD woohoooo

Still not Strong Enough

2009-02-26T10:07:00.000-08:00

Day 3.

alamak...2day sucky...victor!! aihz.... wel.i guess im still not ready to face the next level...after hearing the conversation...i guess...im still not ready for those things...God... teach me patience more n more....lol...renjie... super enjoyed our conversation 2day....hugx! i guess both of us noe how it feels huh??haha....wat more both of us was in our 1st ever relationship huh..hehe... well...it did taught us both tons of stuff...being gud or bad... for me...im not shy to tell the world tat i nvr regreted loving my love and i still do...be wat others said... im still loving u like mad whether u choose to ignore it or choose to love me bac one day...coz my love for u is ever pure...

Renjie...thank you...and yea..3 more box....this very 3 boxes left...is my time limit..after this three...i wan to be free...and i want to adore u back oh Lord...give me time...im changing for You... and dear love...pls attend church... dere is still much more for u to learn...and for me.... let me share tis wit u... Choose to obey man or God...is up to u... onli you will noe which wan is much more important to u... in order for blessings to flow in ur life...and less trouble... pls...be wise...you wudnt noe how much i spend my time wit God when me n u 1st met...but due to my s2pidity i left u rejected...sorry again

To all my ever close friends and to my dearest Sis!!! I love all of u guys!! seriously i admit sumtimes when life gets tough on u...and life goes to fun for u...u tend to forget sum of ur friends...but God always brings the most unexpected ppl to be there for u...and this people...are wat v humans called... The BEST FRIENDS U EVER HAD!

love...u might face certain problems...but let me share wit you..learn to lean of God when it comes to hard times or even minor problems...dun fight battles on ur own coz victory belongs to God... sumtimes...its better for u to understand ppl rather den demanding ppl to understands u..learn to look from a different point of view..well.. u r stubborn at times...after all this while i knew u....not to say its not good...but at times... be wise n look at the situation...coz wat stubborness brought to me...its a disaster...

hehe...VICTOR!! im proud u u noe...u actually succeed being the kindess person ever...selfishness is not in ur vocabulary anymore...u adviced the person u loved most in her rship..and not sitting down to watch it end... as wat u hav learnt that divine love is wat had brought u to this stage...well...it do hurts when u see the one u loved most...is wit another person... and dear Victor...preservere n NVR GIVE UP TILL THE LAST MOMENT....

to love's current bf...FUISH...my gawd...im actually writing to u...lol....well....u anti me for the wrong reason...and pls...dun keep jealously in u...gawd...i was once like you...well...not as gila as u...but den...man to man...its not like u're pickin up my mess for gudness sake...its because u love her u r willing to go thru the hard times wit her...barger...dun ever blame for fux...its not like ur older den me u can do watever u want...dun b a puzzy... face the problem head on...im learnin that coz tat is wat cost my rship...till the day i die...ill keep tat deep in the ocean of my heart...in tis post of mine...babe! u better take gud care of her dude...dun make the same mistake as i did... Im wishin her happy blessings...pls...dun u dare touch her if u're plannin to play her up...sori for being rude coz i dun believe in clubbing dates bro... i've seen to much...anyway...thx for being dere for her all this while when im was still in my s2pidity maze...

Well, i guess... tis period of time...i still need to learn more coz im still not really ready to be the prince of my beloved heart yet..i reli hope 1 day it will and she'll tell me she wants to be my princess... BE STRONG N KEEP IT GOIN VIC!!

MY LOVE....MY WORDS OF HEART SPEAK THRU THIS SONGS NOW....

So far...SO good~~

2009-02-25T15:30:00.000-08:00

Day 2.
DEfinately had fun 2day...lol... and so did tis XX XXX...hehe... well....v were like walkin down memory lane all together... finally XX XXX noes how i felt last time and havin a "lame" excuse...i guess my life is quite lame after all...being unmatured n stuff...well...i got nothin to hide anymore when it comes to XX XXX...haha...im goin all out~~ its super early morning and im still thinkin bout yesterday...well...to be honest...dere is a moment where i do want to freeze the time yesterday and tinks its like last time...the doors of my heart is still wide open for u...

Congratz Vic...U make urself proud....

2009-02-24T07:58:00.000-08:00

Day 1.

I conquered my fears and im living wit confidence...i guess God helped me out tis time huh...Thx alot God!! ALL out for ya!! haha... No explaination needed here..hehe...coz its btw me n God...alrite...ROLL ON VIC.... remember XX XXX... be strong in ur rship k?? if ever i saw u "messed up" im gonna be the Cleaner...HAHA!!!

There is no Time Machine

2009-02-23T08:26:00.001-08:00

well...i still wanna cont my life...but nvrtheless this guilt of mine will definitely stay forever indeed... for not lovin u enuf and being s2pid dat letting u go will solve things...but it ends up it didnt... to be honest wit u my love... I will not move... until God tells me so... Well...answer is always later yes and no...i do hope its later...until i really grow up and understand wat is the real meaning of love.. i guess He's teaching me how to grow up and how to be patience and really understands wat is urs is urs...can nvr run away from it huh...haha...until God answer me...i will definitely wait for you...for the time being..as time heals me and with God's guidance and teaching...i will still be waiting...coz there is no other one like you...haha...Victor Loke...be strong coz when God is with you...no one can bring u down...ten thousand may fall on ur left or even ur right...but u will nvr fall...for God is with you... Remember...

Its over...

2009-02-23T02:40:00.000-08:00

I guess it cudnt be help...its over...avthin is over...avthin is gone...starting from zero bac again huh...well waiyee...i hope wat u said...its gonna come thru... i do wanna cont my life and i letting go...its hard to accept but truth hurts and shit happens...maple...i blieve in wat u said and im goin for it...

Seeing the person u loved the most lovin sum1 else is the hardest part in ur life... its like living hell to me...

Im a Man hu Cant Be MOVED.....

2009-02-21T12:17:00.000-08:00

This is wat i really am my love..this is my song to you...and this is indeed wat i am doin....

This is the lyrics that explains wat u really are to me...and i will love u till the end...

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Alone

2009-02-21T03:27:00.001-08:00

Im feeling lonely nowadays....as if im left jz like tat...half way dangling....Im really clueless my love...wat r u tryin to do and wat is in ur mind....pls tell me....im worried bout u and i got no news from u...not even a simple msg or sumthin...pls....tell me something....

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down, and turned around
Say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
Cause that's what you get
When you see your life through someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

Song Dedication post~~

2009-02-18T21:38:00.000-08:00

A Girl Like You is IMPOSSIBLE to Find....

A song to myself and also to you..KEEP HOLDING ON....I'll fight and defend forever till my last breath

hmm...a song to my school....well tis is random....haha

Another song to all my girl friends....hope u guys will sing this to ur bfs...and future bfs....haha...

I love you

2009-02-18T15:44:00.000-08:00

i wanna tell u my dear... tat till the day i die i will still wait for you..no matter wat the world tells me....i will still love you and my love for u will grow stronger each day..yes its always hard to see the one u loved the most with other guy...i guess tats my punishment for the rest of my life for not taking u seriously when i had u dat time and now i suffer what u r suffering...ive told u avthin yesterday..from the deep down of my heart..i will still wait...coz u r the one i love the one i cherish the most in my life now..

its still hurts badly and if onli u cud see the condition of my heart....im really sori for my s2pidity all this while dat i nvr did anythin to hold u bac...to make u wait for me....to giv u a hint tat i still lovin you....im being stupid.........YES its always dere the scar of my life...I love you darling.....

Shit Happens

2009-02-17T14:30:00.001-08:00

Im so gonna tell myself that i cant let it go....u're all over me.... but at the same time....hatred is in me as well....u're definately driving me nuts i tell u...zzzz....i hate it when u're wit another guy when u say u love me...and u dunwan to hurt both of us....as a matter of fact...u hav to choose 1 and by saying u choose either of us....will definately result in hurtin one of us....well...fark it....

being mr.nice guy is a farked up thin... so screw mr.nice guy man....im not gonna make myself into another deep shit again....im tellin u this because all i want is u....there is no such thin as half hearted...