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this question always pop out in my mind...how hard can it be??it challenges you every single time you said it....and yea sometimes it can be very hard...and i fall so many times to take up this challenge...

how hard can it be to love someone that actually tells u that she's in love with another person?? how hard can it be to hear everything she said is about that person and ure there just beside her....

I seriously find it fucking hard... ive fall countless of times just to keep myself in one piece.. i guess the love isnt just enough...i do not know....the lil things that were inside me tells me that u'll come to me one day but i never know how long should i wait...

I missed u so much and yet...i dunno wat should i do.... i cant say i love you anymore coz it hurts me when i look at you thinking of another person...will i ever be in ur heart to stay and to be with u??

im pulling out from this blackhole... it aint matter anot about waiting for you or not...im not gonna be waiting whole life for you...sorry and im out of here...peace out girl...

believe it or not i just cant stop listening to this song by lee hyori....wayyyyy to much to let go of this song............

No matter wat....no matter wat comes in my way now.....Studies come 1st.... Pushing it all the way up!!

Seriously i do not know wat to type on this 100th post in my blog...lol... my life aint happening compared to last time... So just me write out wats on my mind...WARNING : Pure randomness!!!

finals are comin as usual every end of the sem and this period is the most fucked up part of my life.

I believe that my life has slowly revealing itself to me and what the real world is all about.... all i see is hypocrites are everywhere...so common until u can say its they are like just dirt on the ground. That's how common it is....and i believe that all we can do is just play your game smart and go to the clean side..

There is this old wise man told me before that when im once in the working world...you are bound to meet backstabber aka dirty cheap bastards that will just fuck u rite up infront of your boss to get themselves a better place and the best way is to prove them wrong by your results of the work..

However, its heart broken to see that some of my working friends applied that cheap shit thing in their worklife to get a better position and i find that maybe they're desperate...well who wouldn't? the bottom line is that they just fucked up their own principles and threw their own reputation down the drain...

Talking about love...hmm.... its been a roller coaster ride for me in this topic....experienced so many and unexpected things in my love life..lol..sumtimes i find it funny...sometimes sad and sumtimes the feeling of i dont wanna give up just yet

Love is wonderful but yet at the same time its so complicating...humans are already complicating to the extend only God noes how to handle us...wat more a human trying to understand a human=____=

A girl told me that eventhough the boy she liked had a gf and she doesnt wanna give up on him.... At 1st i was like wtf?? wat an dumb girl....but yet again when i try to understand her...i find that yea...mayb i do understand her...coz ive been thru it.. i know how hard it is to face the reality and the truth hurts...but i do want to tell her that... its not worth it(everyone wud say this) and pls do not live in denial...at the end of the day.... you'll feel like shit and i do mean LIKE SHIT after the guy played u up and fuck u off from his life.... and the closest people to you will have to clean up that shit...

BUT....one can never learn the lesson of life witout going thru it...onli after that..the girl will learn not to fall for these kinda people... It hurts especially when i myself loved that girl...Its like a slightness shine of hope at the end of the tunnel ure in...giving up the onli hope and yet its like going further and further..

Love is just so unpredictable and yet fragile at the same time.....So cherish the ones you have and do your best so you'll never regret that u'll lose that person....

Thx for reading all these nonsense ive wrote....==" pure randomness on my 100th post.....FML

It would be wrong for me to say.....
I don't need you by my side
I don't need you in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold you when you cry

And i would not want to say that....
I don't want to say you're my kind
I don't want to say that you're mine
I don't want to tell you that
I love you more than life

Unbelievable that this song matches every single detail what my hearts want to say out...im singing this song all the way....

without you its gonna be lonely
so lets make the most of tonight
did i ever say you were the only... one who could make it alright
now i don't know when i'm gonna see you again
cant you take my mind off the pain?

so just make a move you've got nothing to lose, no

here i am, take a chance
what are you waiting for?
im telling you as a friend, we could be so much more
i never thought anyone ever could make me feel this way
so make my day!

dont make me feel stupid don't say i was wrong
building this up in my mind for so long
now our times running out so you got to be strong
if you wanna make this right break the ice
dont think twice, take me away!
what are you waiting for?